This weekend I watched one of my favourite comedy troupes, the Pythons at their best in ‘The Life of Brian’.  If you are an Evangelical Christian, look away now!  This film makes me howl laughing and after the week I ‘ve just had, I needed it.  Technical problems abounded on my computer as I contracted a particularly nasty virus that seemed not only like creeping death, but robbed me of the ability to relax at the weekend with my favourite online chill-out buddy, BBC i-Player.

A good belly laugh was well needed after spending torutous hours and hours throughout the course of a week in an online I.T. help forum , getting help from kindly techy community members.. I cannot tell you how grim last week was, as I watched absolutely necessary earnings slide out of view and the crest of this debt ravine I am in move a little further away from my line of vision….

I am, as anyone might gather from reading my posts and articles a bit of a BBC addict.  I do not possess a TV… YES It’s true people, I don’t see the need with a radio and lap top,  I am completely wired to the world!  But, as ever, I digress…

The challenges I have faced this past few years since walking out on predictable income earning have been phenomenal and continue to test me to my limits… But nevertheless, I can honestly say that consistent efforts, even in the direction of blind allies is teaching me so much about success and failure and progress and even more about who I really am, I would not change a thing.

For regular readers, you will know I am a fan of Network Marketing businesses.  And I have now been through a few already in the past few years… And failure is still bringing me closer and closer to success… Even as I eat cold beans on toast when the gas meter runs out!

I swear my few friends who see me struggle, think I am nuts and just need to get a job and move on.  But this isn’t a phase… There is no turning back to wage slavery for me. Even if I have to return to that prison cell temporarily, to eradicate the debt I have accrued during my trial and error of different business models, I absolutely am going to find what is right for ME!

To date, I have started an ‘Intrapreneurial’ Venture with a marketing company, a financial services company, a catalogue retail company and now, I am coming closer to a business model I can not only truly get passionate about, but that is not going to break the bank!

Some companies will encourage you to finance the investment in setting up your own business with a loan.    I did this out of a reluctance to claim benefits from the state.  I had done this not long before after a car accident left me temporarily unable to work.  It was a nightmare. Cathy from the Merthyr Tydfil benefits claims office, if you or your friends ever read this… YOU need a personality transplant or to get sacked – because sadly you are too much of a coward to ever have the guts to leave that job you hate so much you have to treat your customers like shit on your shoe!

This woman made my life a misery and reminded me of those miserable days thirty years ago during the last recession, when I last was jobless.  Being jobless or unable to work can be sould destroying if you do not summon courage to look at other options.

Since my recovery in late Summer of 2009, I have taken on loans to invest in myself and a future where one day I will be FREE in the widest sense.  I may have to work for a living and even work all the hours sent to me for the next ten years, but when I do retire, it will be as a happy woman who has taken control of her life and followed her own heart and mind!

And this is what every truly successful entrepreneur has done before.  So these are the people that we must look to for our own inspiration.

So, apart from now turning to a distributorship company who are the most closest allied to my own ethics and values for some immediate extra earnings, my head spins daily with new possibilities I never even believed were possible… And every day, I might not yet be reaping the fruits of my labour in financial terms, but the rewards will come.  I know it, because every day I see new results I have achieved and movement forward.  And when the going gets tough, that movement is certainty enough.  So I am happy… My time for earning big time and working from home full-time is yet to come…